Monday, August 29, 2005

WHEEEE.
i love all of you sweeet people.
MUAHS. ^^
darn. i have pretty extreme mood swings arh. HOHO
but who cares.
was watching the bone collecter on chnl 5 that day
totally freaks the hell outta me man!


i need a new blog layout! im sick of this boooooring one.


huiyi rants at 2:27 PM

Friday, August 26, 2005

I have realized how some people tend to take things for granted and undeniably, it really pisses me off. Maybe its because of the environment that I am in, or maybe its because I'm told not to dismiss whatever I have so freely, so simply. Okay, I am the only child in my family, but I've been brought up, in a rather conservative Chinese family, so to say, my parents are rather strict about my moral values and all sorts. They don't want me to be dependent, so we never had a maid, despite my mum being so busy and she hardly has the time to clean up the house or whatsoever. I�m not that spoilt, really. At least, I don't rely on people to bring my drinks out from the kitchen, neither do I rely on them to help me tidy my stuff, wash my clothes, or cook my meals. I am actually confident enough to say that I'm able to do all that without difficulty. But seriously, how many people are that independent nowadays? Blame it on the parents who spoil their kids, blame it on the maids, whatever! You know when you go to the bottom of everything, its just you and yourself, the way you look at things. So, if you are an independent person, your reliance on your maid might be not so. I'm not criticizing all the people who have maids or anything, but I'm just thinking, is it because our standard of living is getting higher and higher, and many of us are really so blessed with the luxury of staying in a big house, having a high allowance, studying in a good school, sitting in a posh car etc. And when the rest of the population takes bus home, we�re so lazy we actually take cabs! Seriously, come to think of it, our cab fare for one day is like one meal for the Bangladesh workers. They save up every single penny of theirs, so that they could go back to their homeland and open a small shop so that their family could have a good life.


I often reflect on the way I lived and I have decided that I'm quite contented with what I have. What more could I ask for. Well, yah, I don't have my BMW, neither do I stay in a bungalow, but I have a pretty house that I'm proud of, parents who love me, lovely dogs and supportive friends. I'm a lucky shit, really. So what if my parents aren't earning millions, so what if I'm not the top student in my shitty school, I like my life and that's it. I don't ask for anything more. Like what my father says, I might be poor among the rich, but I'm definitely rich among the poor. So why should I be unhappy?


Those people who are striving to be rich 24/7 are pathetic I think. Not that having a big dream is not good, but when you reach the stage when you forgo everything just for money, its not worth it. Not worth it at all. But do they care, they don't. True enough, money works wonders. We can't do anything without money. Money can buy you houses, cars, and almost everything! It can even buy you friends, but when you don't have any more money, where are your friends? POOF. They'll be gone in three seconds I tell you.


I was talking to siewmun today when I realized all these things. That how the people around me are treating what they have so lightly because they are just fucking rich, seriously! Okay, maybe they don't think they are rich but they are. Well, they don't really admit it, but they are really sheltered in a world when money is not a problem to them. It comes so naturally to them that they treat it like nothing! I'm quite appalled by this behavior and that might explain my violent reactions to certain things. Because I don't take things for granted. I know one day my father's business might just topple, that's why I appreciate what I have currently. No one is going to be rich forever eh? Say this girl, she's smart and rich and she has everything. Her father is the CEO of some GREAAATTT company but if she doesn't work hard on her part, all the wealth that she has now will just flow through her hands. Yeah, you say, she's smart and rich, so its okay if she doesn't study. But fuck! That's not the case! You are smart, you don't study, you have never even read the book once, say even a genius won't even know what to do ok! Unless you tell me you know every single thing under the world. Her father is the CEO of the company, but that doesn't mean that she'll take over either. If she stopped her education at this level, you think only with that big brain of hers she will make it big? No way man. Her smartness won't take her that far. Yeah, you say people who didn't finish their education still made it big. But how small is the percentage of the millions in this world?. Sad to say, being smart is nothing if you're not hardworking.


I'm sorry if I'm too critical. I'm sorry if I even offended anyone. But these are just my feelings and if I have said anything wrong, please, really, do enlighten me. Sometimes I really feel like I'm too critical because I often feel that everyone around me has something wrong at a certain point of time. Yeah I understand that no one is perfect, and of course, I'm one of the least perfect ones. Mum says that criticizing people all the time is not very nice, yeah I know. It makes people think that I'm probably thinking like I'm superior to everyone. But no, no, that's not for me. From what I know, I have a lot of flaws, really. It's just that I'm quite sensitive at certain times, and some things just strike me as it is and you know, being me, I need to voice it out. I have been thinking of this for quite some time and sigh. It's been troubling me. (Tell me if I'm thinking too much)


Ah. I have too much love for this world.


huiyi rants at 8:52 PM

Thursday, August 25, 2005

woohoo. smart huiyi dint go to school today. neither did the rest of the donkeys. phew. lucky i dint go. if i'll be left alone with... shuanghong? or did that girl even bother to go? okay. gees. today is actually the non-official last day of school for the the unlucky shits who are Sec 4 and taking O levels this year. i am SO not looking forward to the prelims and Os. in fact. i told you. i dread it.


anyway. oral went well. biology practical was alright. and there's chemistry practical tomorrow. boy am i nervous! sheesh. i finally understood the stupid mole concept after revising for one whole afternoon. no need to get help from you already stelly! heh heh. i feel so accomplished after studying non stop for one whole day. i hereby announce that tan huiyi is a nerd! WOOHOO. im gonna mug all day long and still come online. (eh.. is that possible?)


im in a rather good mood today la. a large part of it was cause i dint go to school. the other part.. well i dont really know. must be me getting too excited for chem prac. -.- lame reason. anyway. i just prepared the so-called dinner. and YEUCCKKKKS. my broccoli salad sucked like hell. i wonder how lavendar prepared it man. its like so fresh and nice and... nice! but the others were alright. i mean like duh! you dont expect the campbell soup or the egg sandwich to taste horrid right! yeah man. im a sucker at cooking. shall find a boyfriend who knows how to cook next time. i dont wanna mess up the whole kitchen and the only productive thing i did was washing up the dishes. greaaaaaat.


hoho. papa's back. gonna annouce the bad news that dinner is gonna suck like hell today. tata and love you all!


huiyi rants at 8:04 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

here i am to update my blog!
BOOOBOOBAAAA. ><
btw weibo was BORING!
sort of regretted making up so many excuses to go for the autograph session but you know at least i shook his hand and all that yeah. and must thank yijie for making the right choice to go to the backstage instead of squeezing with all other people and being blinded by the BRIGHT orange TEESHIRTS AND BOARDS.
ahh. so bright so bright!
PSST. the chairman is GAYYYYYYYYYYY. HEEHEEHEE.
saw alot of familiar faces today. all the energy fans! tian ah.
anyway. weibo was friendly and nice. but dint get him to write my name because a certain irritating XXXXXX person was STARING SO HARD. ahh. *waves my hand in the bimbotic way* nevermind. i shall not be so calculative. da ren bu ji xiao ren guo.
YES. learn a chinese idiom from huiyi everyday and you'll score A1 for your chinese in O's.
BAHs. now then i realised how much i missed niunai. and yeah. hope they'll come soon. but not so soon either! i dont want to know that they're coming and yet cant go to see them. i'll simple DIE~ )x


huiyi rants at 6:35 PM